Looking Up

I'm feeling decidedly better this week, and I think it's a mix of things, but most particularly:

1. I've been chatting with people outside of work and family. A long phone call with an old friend, planning shared meals with friends in Boston while I'm there for a work trip next month, and chatting online with some old choir friends and one new online acquaintance; I feel more connected. I even got back in touch with someone I had a falling out with 20 years ago, and realized that my feelings about him had evolved to be quite neutral, which was a comfort to me.

2. We hired a couple of junior associates in our group at work recently, and they are fantastic. I hadn't realized just how much of a difference good help makes, because frankly I'd been fixing sub-par work for years and had come to expect that it was all really on me to do everything that needed to be done right. Not anymore. I can finally supervise the way supervision was intended, and not feel like I can't delegate anything significant or important. It's a breath of fresh air.

3. We are down to the last month before new partners are announced, and I'm hopeful about that. I could still be disappointed, but somehow I feel like I'm stepping into the role already and that it's coming.

4. We are pregnant again, and although there is still plenty of risk of a third miscarriage, I feel less overwhelmed by it this time than last time. 

There isn't that much else to report, but in that sense, no news is good news.