Not Home

It's been a long winter. Christmas was nice, and my parents did come for three weeks after Christmas, and our second Christmas with them was also nice, but my in-laws are still here and we are still spending our evenings at the grandparents house, on top of which we are currently residing there too due to complications associated with moving back into our house after a termite fumigation (it's a long story, not related to the fumigant...). My wife is more than seven months into her pregnancy and three months unemployed, and not only physically unable to do much to help but also particularly ornery and critical of everything I do or don't do, with little humor or flexibility, and it's been especially hard residing with her parents during this period with nowhere to escape except the office (for which I have been extremely grateful; I hate working from home right now). I'm not happy with the way things are going at the moment.

That being said, our son is the light of my life, and between him and some interesting clients and pleasant colleagues at work, I'm going to be ok. It will be a hard first six months with our newborn daughter when she arrives, but I'm looking forward to meeting her and starting a lifelong relationship with her too. I really don't know right now if my wife and I are going to be able to pull it together for the long term, but I know our son loves both of us and wants to be with both of us, and that's important to me. So I am trying to focus on the good in my life and shed the negativity pouring down all around me and keep swimming.

Not the happiest post, I know, but let's be real -- life isn't all sunshine and rainbows. There are always ups and downs, and this isn't my first rodeo -- I'll find happiness and contentment one way or another. Blogging and listening to good music in a rare moment to myself while our son sleeps is a first step in that direction.